There’s no proof..
..that it ever happened. It’s like life is just supposed to go back to the way it was before. I feel like I’m lying to myself with everything I do. When am I going to convince myself that this is what’s best? Keeping busy all the time helps for a little while, but when it’s over, I’m left all alone with my mind. Everyone knows that your own mind is the most dangerous thing to have to face alone.
I’ll be okay
I just went back and read all of the things that I’ve been posting. If I was a random person and just stumbled upon this stuff, I’d assume that the person writing it must be depressed. I’m just going to go ahead and say that this is not the case. I’m going through some hard times right now, but I have no doubt that no matter what happens, I’ll be okay eventually. It’s true that I’m not happy, but I’m not going to let myself become depressed over something that is out of my control. I have been avoiding posting on my other tumblr and on my facebook because I feel that anything I would say on those would either sound depressing or sound like forced happiness. I can’t find anything worth saying to people, so I won’t push myself until I feel that I am ready to do so. If I try hard enough, I know that I can pull through this and become the confident person that I once was.
