December 2011
11 posts
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To clean or not to clean
If we’re hanging out this week then I will, but if we’re not then i’ll wait until later.
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Putting the pieces together
It’s taking longer to get my room put back together than I thought it would. I have no idea where to put some things. I need someplace to put my alarm clock and the guitars need to be moved to the other side of the room because every time I sit up in bed, I hit my head on them. Everything sounded good when I was planning this, but it’s not working out quite like I thought it would.
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Today
I had the chance to do something for the first time ever. I couldn’t go through with it because I was afraid something would go wrong and i’d have to get it done again. -_- I’m going to have to do it eventually.
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Oh boy...
..this just got awkward.
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It was nice seeing you the other day.
I thought it would be awkward, but it really wasn’t. I was surprised, but in a good way. Could we make something when we hang out? I haven’t been able to find anyone that’s as fun to bake with. I have some new ideas and i’d kinda like to try them out. Would you be interested?
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I probably wasn't meant to see it, but I did.
Your post from earlier, I mean. I’m not sure if you really wanted the answers to the things you mentioned, or if they were just on your mind. Either way I guess we’ll probably end up talking about it when we hang out.
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Someday...
..I think I’d like to hang out. I’m not sure when, but eventually. In two weeks I’ll be done with my semester and I’ll have a month off of school. If you would like to hang out sometime during that month, then let me know. If not, then you don’t have to worry, I won’t take it personally.
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Shows
Going to soma twice (possibly three times) in the next two weeks?
Yes, I do believe I shall. :]
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And even now..
..I have every little thing that we did together. Every picture, every movie ticket, all the notes and drawings, your jacket, the notebook, the stuffed animals…everything. It’s all in a box in my closet for when I feel I’m ready to see it again. I didn’t want you out of my life for good. I just couldn’t have it sitting around my room, or it would have been hard to be...
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In some strange way..
..I feel like I’m going to the wrong show tomorrow. Since I won’t be seeing him to say this, I’ll put it here.
Good luck tomorrow night. I know you’ll do great. You always do. I’m sorry I won’t be there to cheer you on. I honestly am. This won’t go on forever. I’d still love to be friends someday, i’m just not ready for that yet. I still miss...
October 2011
13 posts
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I know him well enough to know...
…that if he actually wanted to talk to me…he would.
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So...
Today I got to live in a fantasy for a few hours.
Then reality decided to be a bitch and slapped me in the face.
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You put your arms around me
And I believe that it’s easier for you to let me go
You put your arms around me and I’m home.
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It's not possible...
…to just be friends with someone when you want them as more. No matter how badly you want them in your life, there will always be something missing. Friendship simply isn’t enough. How do you move on when everything that you want is just beyond your reach? When it completely takes over your mind and no matter what you do or how many plans you make, you’re still completely...
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There's no proof..
..that it ever happened. It’s like life is just supposed to go back to the way it was before. I feel like I’m lying to myself with everything I do. When am I going to convince myself that this is what’s best? Keeping busy all the time helps for a little while, but when it’s over, I’m left all alone with my mind. Everyone knows that your own mind is the most dangerous...
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I wish...
…that it was as easy for me as it was for him.
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I'll be okay
I just went back and read all of the things that I’ve been posting. If I was a random person and just stumbled upon this stuff, I’d assume that the person writing it must be depressed. I’m just going to go ahead and say that this is not the case. I’m going through some hard times right now, but I have no doubt that no matter what happens, I’ll be okay eventually....
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I can't help but believe
that this is harder on me than it is on you. You seem completely fine. I’m trying to keep busy all the time so I don’t have any time to think about you, but that’s quite pathetic. I should use this week to feel better about myself; to try to make any improvements that I’ve wanted to make for such a long time.
So far here’s how I’m holding up:
haircut
nails...
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Is it just me?
I’m counting minutes. Not even hours or days; minutes. I’m doing everything possible to keep my mind off of you, but you’re everywhere I go. I hear you in every song I try to listen to and I see you in every little thing I do. I couldn’t even stay in my own house last night because it was full of too many memories. I’ve never been a very patient person…I’m...
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11:11
playgroundlovestory:
I will continue to wish even when there is nothing left to wish for.
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New Tumblr
Too many of my friends and family could see my other one, so I decided to make a new account that will be used for venting and saying things that I can’t actually tell people.