To clean or not to clean

If we’re hanging out this week then I will, but if we’re not then i’ll wait until later.

Putting the pieces together

It’s taking longer to get my room put back together than I thought it would. I have no idea where to put some things. I need someplace to put my alarm clock and the guitars need to be moved to the other side of the room because every time I sit up in bed, I hit my head on them. Everything sounded good when I was planning this, but it’s not working out quite like I thought it would.

Today

I had the chance to do something for the first time ever. I couldn’t go through with it because I was afraid something would go wrong and i’d have to get it done again. -_- I’m going to have to do it eventually.

Oh boy…

..this just got awkward.

I’m going to make this soon. I just have to figure out what to use instead of coconut on top…

It was nice seeing you the other day.

I thought it would be awkward, but it really wasn’t. I was surprised, but in a good way. Could we make something when we hang out? I haven’t been able to find anyone that’s as fun to bake with. I have some new ideas and i’d kinda like to try them out. Would you be interested?

I probably wasn’t meant to see it, but I did.

Your post from earlier, I mean. I’m not sure if you really wanted the answers to the things you mentioned, or if they were just on your mind. Either way I guess we’ll probably end up talking about it when we hang out.

Someday…

..I think I’d like to hang out. I’m not sure when, but eventually. In two weeks I’ll be done with my semester and I’ll have a month off of school. If you would like to hang out sometime during that month, then let me know. If not, then you don’t have to worry, I won’t take it personally.

Shows

Going to soma twice (possibly three times) in the next two weeks?

Yes, I do believe I shall. :]

And even now..

..I have every little thing that we did together. Every picture, every movie ticket, all the notes and drawings, your jacket, the notebook, the stuffed animals…everything. It’s all in a box in my closet for when I feel I’m ready to see it again. I didn’t want you out of my life for good. I just couldn’t have it sitting around my room, or it would have been hard to be happy again. Even right after it happened, I knew that I wouldn’t want to forget anything from those 2 years. They were amazing memories. Probably some of the best that I have.

In some strange way..

..I feel like I’m going to the wrong show tomorrow. Since I won’t be seeing him to say this, I’ll put it here.

Good luck tomorrow night. I know you’ll do great. You always do. I’m sorry I won’t be there to cheer you on. I honestly am. This won’t go on forever. I’d still love to be friends someday, i’m just not ready for that yet. I still miss you. And of course I still care. I never saw it as bad terms. I wasn’t mad, I just needed space. I’d still always be here for you if you needed someone to talk to. My life has been great as well. So much has been going on lately and I’m honestly happy with the way my life is going. But at the same time, I know exactly what you mean. Everything is great, but it’s still missing something. Everytime something big happens, I feel like I want to share it with you. I’m stopping by to drop fudge and other treats off for your family over christmas break. Maybe I’ll see you for a bit then. I hope it’s not weird to hear this from me, but I’m honestly proud of all that you’ve accomplished. Your music is even more amazing than before (if that’s even possible). You’ve gotten a lot done and I’m so happy that everything is working out for you. I really am.

I know him well enough to know…

…that if he actually wanted to talk to me…he would.

So…

Today I got to live in a fantasy for a few hours.

Then reality decided to be a bitch and slapped me in the face.

You put your arms around me

And I believe that it’s easier for you to let me go

You put your arms around me and I’m home.